the show business

it's all about the 'show business'...

such a strong take home message after a 6-day-long training... i wonder if i have told my ex-managers about it, would they ever wanna send new employed to the training anymore? i am out of the 'show business' just 2 hours ago... having to quit again without having another job secured may not be as fun as one have thought! but it is a decision to make... and in life, like it or not, it's all about decision making...

mathematics in life

waking up to reality = letting go of dreams?

dancing in the rain

something has been constantly playing in her mind lately... if only God knew her better than she does, He wouldn't have placed her in such situation? she's in a situation where she thinks she's being shortchanged, if not so, God must be fooling her around...

is it good enough to only learn how to dance in the rain but not fighting too hard to survive in the storm? is she willing to settle for the second best?

not even Papico is able to restore the smile on her face...

this will only make her miss her days with Papico... more...

one fine day, she'll meet Papico in the land of Papico...

the way . or purely him?

she once thought that...

she's amazed by the way he lives life, work hard and play even harder
she's inspired by the way he works, always going for the extra miles
she's delighted by the way he shares his fun-crappie talk about life and people
she's influenced by the way he thinks about the universe and its rules

so...
she thinks he's sophisticated as he seems to know a little bit of everything

tonight, she pondered and asked again... is it really the way or him? she wonders...

little. little things that enlightened my heart

i'm enlightened because...

i. the lady boutique owner remembered my name even after such a long time since my last visit there. perhaps this is the advantage you get for being a long-term loyal customer. and of course, it still comes with the 30% discount. a colleague once trying to brag that she holds a vip card from the boutique which entitles her a 10% discount with any purchase. after having heard of that, i sniggered as i walked away from her working cubicle.

ii. i made a mug of good coffee in my favourite coffee-making mug. it's a cheap and not so good looking mug with my favourite cartoon character print on it - the snoopy! but i have been using it from my first job till now, and it has been faithful to me for being able to turn any coffee made in it into a great one. and the good news is, i am bringing it to my new work place next week!

truth hurts

truth hurts. it hurts beyond what you can imagine. beyond what you can take.

i need to find a secret place to hide this vulnerable heart. it needs to be kept carefully and only the right one will be able to locate and unlock it.

till then, till the next new beginning, something's gonna end first.

crying from the inside

i wanna cry. i just feel like it now...

reasons:
i am tired
i am overwhelmed with life issues . all at the same time
i am anxious of knowing the answers
i am losing my patience waiting for the replies
i start doubting myself
i am empty on the inside
i am insecured
i am not who i am now
i promised someone who loves me from above that i'll stop missing somebody on earth

i miss him.
his shi-llarious-ness. his stupidness. his crazyness. his magic.
... for one last time ...